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Title: Move Along
Artist: The All-American Rejects
Album: Move Along
Year: 2005

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along

Along, along, along, along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

Well, it seems like it's been forever since I've posted an entry here and it really has been. I'm not even sure where to begin. This weekend I spent the time rearranging my room. Ever since I bought a TV for the living room a couple months ago I've had my old TV on my dresser in my room. The way it was before made my room look cluttered. So I decided to move stuff around. I swapped my TV and computer and dusted them off. It's not a really big change but it actually makes my room feel a little more roomy that way. It was also a more logical place because the cable jack is on the south wall where the TV is now. Before, I had a long cable running over the arch of my door and to the TV. The only thing I don't like now is that the lighting is all different. I might need to get another lamp one of these days for my room.

It's hard to believe its almost been 14 months since I've moved here. It really hasn't seemed that long. The only thing I feel I've been lacking since moving here is people to hang out with. In San Antonio, I had friends I'd go do stuff with whether it was talk over dinner or go to the movies. While I have gone out a couple times, it seems for the most part I've been a recluse since being here. I really don't see myself going to clubs or bars and really besides the people at work and a few close friends, there aren't many people I know around here. I wish I could change that but that is something that has still eluded me. Part of it is because I'm not a very social person, but for me, going out is hanging out with close friends or in small groups of people. I still have hope that one of these days I get there.

Well hopefully I write a little more often. These blogs have always been a good way to let out my thoughts. I've said in the past I would keep them up but I usually end up hitting a stagnation. Oh well. I'll try.

Title: It Only Hurts
Artist: Default
Album: One Things Remains
Year: 2005

Can hold my breath
Only for a little while
'til reality starts sinking in

Once again I'm settling
For second best
Turn the page and skip to the end
To where I swore that
I would try since the last time
I crossed that line in the back of my mind I know

It only hurts when
Your eyes are open
Lies get tossed
And truth is spoken
It only hurts when
That door gets open
Dreams are lost
And hearts are broken

Miles away promise
From a burning bed
Two worlds should never collide
One word would end
It if you ever heard
Tear the page out that reminds me
When I swore
That I'd be strong now
The next time has come and gone
Well maybe I'm wrong I know

It only hurts
When your eyes are open
Lies get tossed
And truth is spoken
It only hurts when that door gets open
Dreams are lost
And hearts are broken

I know what your feeling
It's hard to believe in someone,
Someone who's not there
I know that your waiting
'cause love is worth saving
But only for so long,
So long,
So long

I swore that I would try
Since the last time,
The last time

It only hurts
When your eyes are open
Lies get tossed
And truth is spoken
It only hurts
When that door gets open
Dreams are lost
And hearts are broken

It only hurts
When your eyes are open
Lies get tossed
And truth is spoken
It only hurts when that door gets open
Dreams are lost
And hearts are broken

I thought I'd share this with everyone who reads my blogs.

http://www.wowinsider.com/2008/05/03/ready-check-raiding-and-time-management/

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Seems like its been that long since I posted doesn't it? I've had some requests to update this thing so I gave in because I'm like that. So what has been going on with me lately? Well first thing that comes to mind is the parents visited week before last. It was nice seeing them again. I took them to all the touristy places I could think of: Gateway Mall, Trolley Square, Park City. I only had like 3 days off out of the week because of the way things were scheduled so they went sightseeing a couple days while I was at work. One of the things we looked at was ski equipment. There were a lot of sales going on since its the end of the season but I'm not sure that I want ski equipment yet because I kind of want to give snowboarding a try. My mom wanted to get my ski boots and the only problem I have with that is that if I decide I don't want to ski then they will just sit there in my closet. I'll rent until I decide on what I want to buy.

So the reason I haven't been writing these blogs lately has been because of World of Warcraft. I said I was gonna focus on my social life but yeah my social life consists of talking to people who I work with in game. The game is just so addicting. At first I was playing to level my character and do the quests. Now that my main character is at level 70, the highest possible level, I've been running dungeons with people and those usually take like 3 or 4 hours. Its fun because of the people you are interacting with and the strategy that is required to defeat high level bosses. For instance, in our 10 man Karazhan (name of the dungeon) runs, we have to have the right group make up to get anywhere. Generally the make up is 2 tanks, 2-3 healers, and 5-6 DPS. Tanks are characters who can't do a lot of damage but have a ton of hit points and can take a beating. These guys will generally hold the bosses and mobs on them so that they aren't going around killing the group. Healers generally have to heal the group and keep the tank alive. Their role is pretty obvious, and this is the type of character I play. DPS (Damage per second) characters serve only one purpose and that is to kill the bosses with their high damage output. My alternate character, a 64 Druid, is a DPS character but he is not yet geared enough or high enough level to run 10 man or 25 man dungeons. There is so much coordination involved that everyone in the raid gets on this program called Ventrilo so we can talk to each other real time with a headset and mic. Also getting the right group make up means we have to have raid signups in advance and be willing to commit a certain amount of time to do the dungeon. I usually sign up for the 25 man dungeons on Tuesday and Friday from 9pm-1am. There are ocassionally Saturday runs at the same time but I don't always sign up for those. Pretty much throughout the week there are 10 man runs too but I've only signed up for the Sunday runs. Its just so time consuming that I'm probably gonna scale back to just running on Tuesdays and Fridays, but we'll see.

Anyways, now that I've ranted, I think I'll go do some daily quests in WoW or something. I'll try to keep this up to date since apparently people do read it.

Yeah so I haven't written anything in here in months so I thought I'd post something. Things haven't been bad the past few months. My job has stabilized along with my income so I'm not having any trouble getting by. I'm still working on my social life but thats kinda been on hold the last few months. I was playing World of Warcraft with the people at work and I've spent a lot of time trying to get my player to the highest possible level in the game so I could run dungeons with the people at work who have been playing awhile. That objective has been accomplished so now I'm gonna start focusing on my social life. I would really like to start meeting people and dating more but I haven't had much luck in that area. I may start going to clubs as soon as I get the nerve to actually go hehe.

Well I didn't go back to Texas for Thanksgiving but I did go for Christmas. Holiday travel sucks. I had cancelled flights and delays. On the plus side, it was nice to see all the family again. They all want to know when I'm gonna move back but right now I don't have any plans to return. I'm happy with where I'm at right now. That doesn't mean I'm gonna stay here all my life but for now I'm not going anywhere.

Title: Pieces
Artist: Red
Album: End of Silence
Year: 2006

I'm here again
A thousand miles away from You
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I'll see Your face
I know I'm finally Yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to You in pieces
So You can make me whole

I've come undone
But You make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in Your eye

Then I'll see Your face
I know I'm finally Yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to You in pieces
So You can make me whole!

I tried so hard! so hard!
I tried so hard!

Then I'll see Your face
I know I'm finally Yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to You in pieces
So You can make me whole
So You can make me whole

It's hard to believe I've already been in Utah for over a month. This last month has actually gone by pretty quickly. I'm getting used to being up here I guess. I've been much more careful with my money, but since I'm still on a very tight budget, I've decided to get a weekend job. I doubt the job will be very difficult. I'm not looking for something that requires a lot of thought and energy. I do enough of that during the week and I can imagine I'd exhaust myself quickly if I had to sit in front of a computer on the weekends too.

No, I'm actually looking at manual labor type jobs or sales stuff. I need to be more active anyways. I haven't been to a gym in months. One of the jobs I'm looking at right now is for a Saturday parking lot cleaner position. That position is 7-5:30pm at 11.75/hr. That would be enough to help me get by, and it would be physical labor instead of mental. My brain is usually tired on the weekends anyways. I wouldn't mind a job stocking books or shelves at a bookstore or grocery store, but with those jobs I'd almost have to drive around from place to place asking if they have a weekend position open. I might end up doing that if nothing comes through.

I considered night jobs, but I think they would exhaust me way too much no matter what kind of job it happens to be.

Well, not much else has happened around here this last week or so. I'm starting to get tasks outside my job description, which I like. It looks better when it comes time for a review. I'll have to wait until next July for a review, but until then I may be living on the edge with my expenses unless I find some sort of weekend job.

Well since certain people have commented that I haven't written in here in ages I decided to go ahead and fill you in. I'm all settled in here in Utah. I like my job, and I love my reclaimed independence. It's come at a price though. And I'm not just speaking figuratively: getting my finances under control is proving to be a challenge. My net income is a little less than expected so I'm having to cut back and consider taking a weekend job or something to make up the extra amount. I'll be getting by until I start making more money, but until then it's going to take some serious planning and control.

So last weekend I went to visit my dad's cousin Elsa in Heber City. Earlier on in the day we ate at Chuck-O-Rama downtown, and it was good, but more than I wanted to pay. I'm gonna have to pass on such lunches or dinners in the future for financial reasons, but since my grandaunt was in town I figured it was worth the extra expense. Afterwards I had to finish some laundry before driving over to Heber City. I had a little trouble finding the house since its off a small road that runs off the highway. Once I finally got there, she was already in her car and I just got out of mine and into hers and we left to the dollar theater in Provo to watch Wild Hogs. We showed up about 15 minutes into the movie so I missed a lot but from what I saw, it was pretty funny. By the time the movie finished it was around 6 so we went back to Elsa's house where I just visited and stayed for dinner until 8 or so. Last time I had been to her house was when I was maybe 12 or 13 years old so it's been a long time. I didn't get back to my apartment until around 9 but it was nice getting out for a bit.

I think I'm getting into the swing of things at work. I'm finally being assigned projects, which really don't take me a long time to complete. Most of the time I'm waiting on other people to approve things or to get me clearance so I can have access to certain files. I have a lot of downtime, but I'm hoping things pick up once I have all the necessary passwords and I get e-mail approval on things.

That's really about all thats been going on. I'll write a little more in a private entry for those of you who have access.